hey there you.

So……today was pretty damn awesome.

Woke up in a bit of a weird mood. Keep having funny dreams when I’m asleep so I wake up wondering what it is that’s bugging me but then can’t figure it out.

My friend Dawn came over just before lunch time n we made cakes, was totally awesome, made polka dot cake (coconut sponge with smarties inside) and squidgy chocolate logs (chocolatey coconutty flapjacks) and squishy gooey triple chocolate cookies, that have over 1lb of chocolate in them, YUM!  But yeah, was totally awesome to get to just chill out with her and make cakes and have a rant about things, I kinda miss my girl friends sometimes, most of my friends are guys, and I absolutely adore them all, but it’s not the same as having a chat to one of the girls. And Dawn is fantastic and totally down to earth. So it’s ace to be able to just chatter a little.

BJ came over for like ten minutes at one point, on his way for his guys night out. Wow he looked hot. Boys with eyeliner <3<3<3 But i dunno, everything is a bit odd at the moment. I feel like I haven’t seen him for forever, the last time we actually spent time alone together was when we went to see the circus of horrors, like a month ago, so I’ve seen him for like a couple of hours since then and it’s just not enough. But he’s got plenty of time to go n get drunk.  I dunno, it’s all just weird. I don’t think I’m particularly clingy, but I can’t be with someone who isn’t actually here, I like being able to have someone there to chat to and to fall asleep with. It just sucks tonnes that there’s never time for me lol. I think it’s just playing on my mind because I’m about to start a new job, which is gonna mean me starting at stupid times and not able to go to his much, so we won’t see each other as much as we used to. But if we can’t spend any time together on a week when I’ve not had anything at all on, then how’re we gonna manage then?  And I dunno, when he was here the other day for like an hour, he was all awesome and giving me cuddles, but insulting me n bitching too, i don’t know if i’ve done something to piss him off or what :S  bleh

Flatmate made dinner again, I actually love him, we went out drinking a few days ago, he totally treats me like I’m his little sister lol, he’s all protective and sweet and tries to cheer me up when i’ve got a huffy face lol, and we just have ace fun together, I love living somewhere i can just be happy =]

Trying to think what else has happened. Ummm…new job kinda messing me around, i’m going out there tomorrow so hopefully that’ll all get sorted soon and i’ll get started, but not gonna get paid til the 2nd of next month =[

Family stuff is all good for the moment, worried about my brother, and mym mum, and my sister, all for different reasons, but unless they say anything to me then there’s not too much i can do from here.

Cos i haven’t been to BJs for ages i totally miss his dad lol Sounds a bit odd, but I like chatting to him, he’s totally just family, i get rows from him n everything lol, it’s like having a dad near me that can tell me when to stop talking shit :P He’s absolutely awesome, but works way too much, i worry about him too =[

Tis mothers day soon, and BJs dads birthday, and BJs Birthday, and i’m totally not gonna have money to get em presents =[ late presents this year it seems!

I’m off to try n sleep since i’m going out to the airport tomorrow.

g’night